Friday, July 31, 2020

When I Grow Up

When I Grow Up When do we actually grow up? Did I automatically become an adult when I turned 18, or was it when I had my Bat Mitzvah at 12? When I grow up is often completed with a I want to be or a I will try to. We used the phrase when we were little, starting at around kindegarden, to describe the distant future. However, that distant future is now, which is scary as hell. So what do I want to be when I grow up? Part of me is unsure. The other is like Hell yeah Im going to save the world with POLYMERS and CATS. Really. All I want to do is have my cat (and maybe another one or two and a dog and a hamster), work with polymers, and be an EMT. If it gets overwhelming, I can give up helping others through EMTing for a bit to help myself. Its all figured out, right? Where is the uncertainty? Polymers, believe it or not, involve a lot of different industries and disciplines. But thats not it. Life is hard. You have to make hard decisions about polymers and cats and work or graduate school and polymers and cats. Theres a great future in plastics. From 3D printing To designing shoes To adhesives To making awesome fabrics for space for firefighting for everyday use IT IS SO EXCITING THAT THERE ARE SO MANY OPTIONS Plastics were and are the future! And you can do so many things with them thats why I love studying polymers. But Im almost done studying polymers. Hah. Thats not true. MIT is just the beginning. Looking back at the past four years, I have learned so much through my classes, but even more through the internships and friends that I had. Im excited for the next step (a real job (I havent decided where yet (but I have a couple of options (yay options but this is scary because its real life)))), and Im so happy that I had and have so many opportunities available to me due to my MIT experience. It was not and is not easy. There was (is?) a point where the thought of being on MITs campus made me have a panic attack. It is overwhelming. Remember that when youre deciding if MIT is the right place for you. However, I do not regret choosing MIT. No regrets at all. I ended up with a beautiful kitty named Rory. An amazing education. And some friends and experiences I wouldnt give up for the world. So its okay to not know what you want to be when you grow up. Eventually, youll get there. And it will be okay. Just make sure its your decision, you weigh all the options, and that youre happy.